Part One

Well let me start at the beginning, no not the day I was born. But the Day I met *Connor. We tell people we met while he was cleaning the carpets at the library. Well I was at the library, but I was checking my online dating profile, I got off of work early that day. Connor emailed me, Hewas from NY to and living in UT . I had a feeling to give him my number, I don't just give ut my number Ive only been on 1 other internet date before, and It took me a while to meet that guy. I was so nervous, I was praying the WHOLE drive to Connor's house. I just wanted to have fun that night. I didn't think I would meet "the one" . I was starting to think I would never find someone that would love me. I've never really been beautiful or have a great body. Well in my eyes I never was any of that. I had been working none stop. I worked at a call center from 6a-2p. Then in the afternoon I was watching my room-mates kids (3kids). She would get home about 12a. I wasn't going to church, I was smoking, and drinking at party's. But I always wanted to get married in the temple. Well anyway, I lived about 40 mins from Connor's apartment. The computer didn't load fast enough and I got annoyed so I really didn't even know what he looked like. So I was on a cyber-blind date. I called my younger sister to tell her I had a date with a guy from the Internet, just in case he was a killer or something. I knew the apartment complex he lived in cause I had a friend that lived there. Well someone I hung out with. I don't know if I would say she was a friend. I parked my car and went to his apartment. I couldn't remember his apartment # so I called him....he didn't answer. I went to the apartment I think was his. I aways start to second guess myself. I lean again the wall, I'm just want him to think I'm pretty, and not repulsed. I knock. WOW he's HOT! He was a smile that just melts me, Please think I'm pretty. But I'm not nervous anymore. I'm not shaking, I just feel comfortable with him. We leave to go on our date. He has a good looking look Jeep. I have to climb in...its lifted. think I'm pretty and fun. We talk and laugh. He took me to play mini golf. We talk and laugh some more. I was so comfortable with him. He must like me, I'm having so much fun! Then we go get ice cream at the Malt shoppe. We don't want the date to end so we go back to his place and watch Nepolean Dynamite. We didn't watch it, we talked and flired. Oh I loved it! He took my shoe and won't give it back to me. Well until I kissed him. I didn't kiss him! I think I play hit him to get my shoe back. I left. But I didn't want to. We texted while I drove home. I couldn't wait to see him again. I asked him if he wanted to hang out on Friday, he said No! He did want to take me out on another date. Well flashforward 7 months its our wedding day! I couldn't wait to marry him, I was so excited! Of course I was running late, but so was he. He leaves for Army training the next weekend, and 2 months later he leaves for more training, then off to Iraq. We got married on a beautiful October Saturday. We couldn't ask for better weather. It was warm and sunny! Oh how in love we were. Connor was in Iraq for the first year of our marriage! Oh how hard that was. I stayed close to the Lord, and prayed for us and Connor. Oh we were so happy when he came come home! We got to start our life. We had a cute 2 bedroom apartment. We worked and Connor would sometimes come home for lunch. *Nikki came along 1 year later. We had our ups and downs. We had more downs but we were happy or so I thought. When Nikki was one, we spearated, I moved to NY to live with my mom, and dad. My sister and he husband lived with them too along with there little boy. So thats where I am. In New York with my parents and Nikki.