Okay so yes Con and I talked today. I know we are 3,000 miles away but I felt a distance in his voice. It scared me. He is scaring me. I'm LDS and when I got married I got married for eternity. I love him, I always have. I don't want to lose him or my family. Every day I wake up, wishing(praying) that he wants me back. I know I sound like a loser. How do I play hard to get? I never really known. I try everyday to be a good mother, wife, and LDS woman. I have days where I can do one really good. Then I have days where I suck at it all. Or I feel like I did a great job with all of it! Today I think I sucked at it all. I feel like Ive been sucking at it all lately. Maybe tomorrow I can be better.